Mother of 5

I never thought I would write a blog.  In fact, I don't know if this is something I'll share or not.  But I like to type and I do so much better with my words and feelings when I write or type them then I do with speaking them.  So, here I am.

2016 has been the worst year of my life.  There has been joy; but a heartbreak that I will never recover from, makes it the worst.  I am the mother of 4 children and 1 on the way.  I have 3 kids at home and 1 in Heaven.  In Heaven.  I never thought I would have to speak those words.

No one should have to speak those words. 

I will talk a lot about my kids, my grief, my joys, sorrows, life, family, loss.  But to start, it's important to me to say again, I am the mother of 4 - soon to be 5 children.  Teylor, Kiera, Jace, Eliana, and our new baby boy due in early March.  I will always be the mother of 5.  Jace being in Heaven doesn't make him any less my baby, my son.  I carried him, I delivered him, I loved him, I held him in life and I held him in death.  He will always be my 3rd child.  He'll always be the younger brother of Tey and Kiera.  He'll always be the older brother and TWIN of Eliana and our new baby boy on the way. 

That's all for now.